9th May 2007 good lesson bad test

Lesson before test went well I remembered mirror checks did good parallel park, revese round corner was god considering there was a car parked round corner so on test I would of got a different corner but instructor said do it just to practice did that well just would of straightened up more if I had room. Turn in road I put car into reverse to start with instructor had to tell me about it other than that did that well. We got petrol in and tested lights on car one head light wasn't working so instructor got another put in. I set off in neutral down hill for first time ever.

Got to test centre admitted I was nervous read few number plates for my instructor we then stood outside talking a bit about test he told me to stop worrying over what would fail me on test and concentrate on whatever was in front of me. Examiners came in and got me to sign test sheet and check my provisional. Outside eyesight check went well read it first time mite of helped as it was one my instructor tested me on before test. Show me tell me was how do you check tyres are safe and how do you check hand brake works got both them right. Very nervous but had nice woman examiner who told me to relax and take my time. Moved off good timing as there was gap in traffic and I had time to signal and get out without slowing anyone down. First left turn did that well then a roundabout 3 lanes left and right and middle for straight on. I was told go straight on so needed to be in middle lane but it was busy so instead of deciding to go left instead I check mirrors signal and go to middle lane only when other cars were passing so examiner grabbed wheel I knew then that I'd failed and said to examiner "I've failed haven't I?" She didn't answer but I knew I had but forced myself to carry on I was struggling to not cry. Got turn in road which after a minute calming down didn't go great but managed it in 5 turns and there was cars waiting to pass so knew I had to be quick or I'd be marked down for holding them up. Got reverse round corner which was my other fail marked serious, I'm not sure about this but examiner said at end that when she told me to pull up on left before junction I slowed down signaled and stopped causing a car behind to slow down. The reverse round corner was good just one minor for going slightly wide. Another minor was gears which I think the examiner was partly to blame as she told me to turn left a bit late so I didn't have time to change from 3rd to 2nd I am not one to blame other people for my mistakes and I accept full responsibility for the fail. It was a stupid mistake but at least it was a fail that should be a fail unlike some mistakes that can lead to fails. Had a lovely examiner no idea of her name though she told me I was far too nervous to hear it. My instructor was great after the test saying there are a lot of positive things about it. 2nd test 22nd June at 11.21 I am not even thinking about passing now til I am told that I've passed as I got my hopes up too much for 1st test and that could be why I was so nervous.